Essays

  • Logic of the Thicket and the Unsearchable Web

    There is a particular kind of stillness found in the villa overlooking the Giardino all’italiana, a silence that is less about the absence of noise and more about the absolute presence of a plan. Standing upon a belvedere in the sixteenth century, one did not merely look at nature; one looked through a specific geometry that had already decided what nature was allowed to be. Leon Battista Alberti and Niccolò Tribolo did not view the wild landscape as an entity to be met, but as a rough draft to be corrected. The axial symmetry, the squares, and the circles of the Renaissance garden were not merely aesthetic choices; they were the visual grammar of a new kind of mastery. The medieval walls of the hortus conclusus fell away, not to invite the wilderness in, but to expand the reach of the human eye, establishing a panoramic viewpoint where the owner sat as the rational conductor of the visible world.

    By Vincent van Gogh – History of the Red Vineyard by Anna Boch.com, 2nd upload: wikipaintings, Public Domain, https://commons.wikimedia.org/w/index.php?curid=3073079

    It is difficult not to notice how this impulse to map and master—to treat the organic as a design scheme—has slowly migrated from the soil into the fabric of human relation. What began as the pruning of a hedge eventually became the pruning of the social universe. One senses this lineage in the early twentieth century, when the sociogram first began to translate the messy, opaque attractions between people into the clean lines of nodes and links. Jacob L. Moreno’s belief that we could re-engineer social life through these visualizations mirrors the Renaissance gardener’s conviction that an unruly vine is simply a line that has lost its way. We began to treat the human spirit as a series of vertices and edges, a conceptual apparatus that promised to prevent social disorder by making every connection visible, measurable, and, ultimately, manageable.

    This terraforming instinct has a way of smoothing out the world until it becomes a mirror. When Henri de Saint-Simon conceptualized society as a network where resources flowed like blood to reach equilibrium, he was drafting the blueprint for a mechanical harmony. Yet, as Henri Bergson would later observe, this drive toward a perfect mechanism often results in a certain uniformity of things—a state where humanity ceases to climb toward diversity and instead settles into a rhythmic, predictable stasis.

    One might see this most clearly in the way we have come to treat the global digital ecosystem, which functions with the quiet, devastating efficiency of a pesticide. A pesticide is remarkable because it is effective everywhere; it operates on a biological structure that it assumes to be universal. But in its success, it betrays an indifference to locality. It ignores the specific alchemy of the soil, the peculiar behavior of the local insect, and the necessary shadows that allow a system to breathe. Our centralized platforms operate on this same logic of the universal standard. They apply a single, closed grammar of interaction to the entire globe, acting as a chemical wash that removes the noodiversity—the thick, varied textures of thought—required for a culture to sustain its own weight.

    We find ourselves in a race toward an automated general intelligence, a fantasy of efficiency that finds its most intimate expression in the large language model. This model begins to resemble a probabilistic belvedere—a panoramic viewpoint not over physical terrain, but over the sum of our recorded expression. By ingesting the vast, unkempt archives of global culture, it offers back a statistical mean, a smooth and authoritative consensus that prunes the idiosyncratic and the jagged until only the most probable remains. If our thoughts are shaped by this statistical average, we lose the technodiversity required to maintain different ways of being in the world. The danger is not that the machine mimics us, but that we begin to inhabit its statistical center, trading the difficult work of dwelling in our own perspective for the ease of an automated, uniform prose. We are left with a social atomism where the individual is no longer a person in a place, but a social atom vibrating within a pre-programmed apparatus. The platforms we inhabit have become exhausted because they are structurally incapable of fostering anything but disindividuation. They chop attention into marketable fragments—short cries for notice—leaving no room for a collective projectuality that might actually endure.

    What emerges instead is the possibility of the digital garden, a material practice of collective individuation. It begins to resemble something closer to Gilbert Simondon’s vision, where the individual and the collective are not opposing forces but a constant, transforming process. A digital garden is less a profile and more a dwelling; it is a space where one does not merely update a status but coordinates and produces data. By moving away from the walled enclosures of the social graph and toward open standards and linked data, we transition from being passive nodes to active participants in a transindividual reality. It is a shift from connectivity—the mere touching of wires—to a more profound sense of inhabiting the information we create.

    Cultivating this diversity is perhaps the only way to push back against the homogenizing forces that have been accelerating since the industrial age. Biodiversity, noodiversity, and technodiversity are not separate concerns but a single, tangled knot. If our technologies remain uniform, our actions upon the Earth will remain uniform, leading to a predictable kind of collapse. To resist this, we might need to embrace what could be called planetary thinking—an acknowledgement that we inhabit the earth as diverse peoples coexisting with non-human beings, plants, and the elements.

    This requires a cosmotechnics that is bespoke and localized, a recovery of the relationship between the technical tool and the cosmic order it inhabits. What begins to emerge is a sense of terroir for the digital, where the architecture of a network might reflect the specific ancestral rhythms or local moralities of the community that tends it. We might find that the tools we build are not merely instruments of utility but modes of orientation, helping us find our place within a wider world rather than attempting to conquer it. This re-enchantment of the tool moves us away from the cold, industrial universalism of the “global” and toward a variety of local cosmotechnics that align with the specific spirit of the soil.

    Ultimately, the metaphor of the garden begins to feel too brittle, its walls too high to allow for the kind of life we now require. The Renaissance garden was, at its heart, a space of enclosure designed to keep the plague of the outside world at bay, yet today the plague is the enclosure itself; it is the very uniformity that was once our pride. To step away from the belvedere is to complete the descent from sight into touch, moving from the panoramic mastery of the graph toward a mode of navigation that relies on the immediate texture of the undergrowth. In this digital forest, we find the quiet virtue of opacity—a space where the individual is not fully mapped or categorized, but allowed to remain partially in shadow, away from the gardener’s eye. The silence of the statistical mean begins to give way to a different kind of sound, a generative noise that resembles the rustle of a distributed reasoning rather than the hum of a server. It is a state of being that is less about reaching a destination and more about the persistent effort of dwelling, where one might plant a single, idiosyncratic seed that the model cannot predict, watching as it takes its own stubborn shape in the dark.


    Coda: A Lineage of Shadows

    To navigate this landscape is to encounter the echoes of those who first sensed the limits of the enclosure. One cannot speak of the descent into the forest without Gilbert Simondon, for whom the individual was never a fixed substance but a phase of being, a process of becoming that carries with it a pre-individual charge. His refusal of the hylemorphic schema—of form merely imposed upon matter—finds a contemporary resonance in Yuk Hui, whose concepts of cosmotechnics and technodiversity remind us that the machine and the moral order were once, and must again be, a single tangled knot. We feel here, too, the weight of Bernard Stiegler’s pharmakon, that dual nature of technology as both the poison of disindividuation and the potential cure for a new collective life.

    The architecture of our current enclosures has its own long history, a lineage of mastery stretching from Pliny the Younger’s classical retreats to Alberti’s axial gardens, and into the modern social physics of Auguste Comte and Saint-Simon. The clean lines of our social graphs trace a direct path back to the institutional maps of Jacob L. Moreno, who first thought to fix the human spirit into the static geometry of nodes and links. Against this “enframing,” as Heidegger might have termed it—the reduction of the world to a standing reserve—one finds an alternative in the immanence of Spinoza and the multiplicities of Deleuze, thinkers who saw the individual as a relation of forces rather than a solitary atom.

    The possibility of a different web—a distributed reasoning machine—owes its spirit to the early visions of Tim Berners-Lee and the cybernetic distinctions of Norbert Wiener, alongside the contemporary critiques of Geert Lovink and the swarm-logics of Rick Falkvinge. We are reminded by Foucault of the quiet power of documentation to fix us in place, and by Marx of the deep alienation that occurs when we are severed from our collective potential. Throughout these reflections, these voices serve not as definitive authorities, but as orientations—the markers on a trail that is still being blazed, reminding us that to dwell is to participate in a reality that is always, stubbornly, in the process of becoming.

    Hat tip to the wonderful thinkers in the Contraptions Book Club for seeding these ideas.

  • The Shelter as Epistemic Engine

    This is a continuation of my ongoing exploration of places and spaces. Previously: We need homes in the delta quadrant, Thinking with places, Problems are places questions are spaces.


    Introduction: The Terror of the Open Field

    We tend to think of “Space” as a vacuum—an emptiness waiting to be filled. But geographically and philosophically, Space is actually a condition of high-entropy potential. As Yi-Fu Tuan famously articulated, space is “freedom,” but it is also “possibility without orientation.” It is the open field where everything is possible, which means nothing is yet distinct.

    Entering a new scientific field is remarkably similar to entering a strange, sprawling city at night. Both are vast, unmapped, and overwhelming in their sensory input; the streets (or citations) wind in directions you cannot predict, and the logic of the layout remains hidden. You are surrounded by data, but devoid of information.

    In this state, you cannot simply “exist.” Without a point of reference—a coordinate, a hypothesis, a base camp—movement is indistinguishable from drift. To explore a new territory, whether it is the Delta Quadrant or a novel theory of computation, you first need a place to stand.

    We often mistake “Places”—our homes, our labs, our established theories—for static containers designed to protect us from the unknown. We view them as retreats.

    I propose a different view: Real “homes” are not retreats; they are Concreteness Engines. They are the active, necessary interruptions of infinity that allow us to process the world.

    “Exploration of space through the affordance of places. Identity creation.” by Venkatesh Rao’s Bucket Art prompted by me

    I. The Engine: Configurancy

    To understand how a home functions as an engine, we need to look at the underlying physics of how things fit together. Venkatesh Rao recently proposed a new ontological primitive for this, a concept he calls Configurancy.

    Rao defines Configurancy as the “ongoing, relational, temporally unfolding process through which agents and worlds co-emerge.” It is non-teleological; it doesn’t have a “goal” like Heidegger’s Care. It is simply the structural logic of how elements align to create a world that hangs together.

    This provides the missing mechanical link in our understanding of place-making.

    The universe’s configurancy has no inherent goal—it just is. Entropy and evolution shuffle relations without asking why. But humans do have a goal: intelligibility. We need the world to make sense.

    Here lies the synthesis: Place-making is the manual application of configurancy.

    When we build a home in the unknown, we are engaged in the active engineering work of aligning data, tools, and protocols. We are taking the raw, washing-over “Space” and forcing it into a relational alignment that makes it navigable. We are taking the background hum of the universe and tuning it until it resonates as a signal.

    II. The Anchor: Generating Concreteness

    The primary problem with the unknown is not that it is empty, but that it is slippery. It is purely abstract. You cannot interact with “The Literature” or “The Market” or “The Frontier” as a whole; the bandwidth is simply too high.

    A “Home”—whether that is a physical shelter, a published paper, or a foundational startup thesis—functions by freezing the flow. It creates a local boundary where active relations stabilize long enough to be examined.

    Consider the mechanism of a scientific citation. A natural phenomenon is dynamic, messy, and fleeting. But when a scientist writes a paper, they freeze that dynamic phenomenon into a static reference. They turn the anomaly into a “Fact.”

    Similarly, in a city, a “landmark” freezes the endless flow of streets into a fixed coordinate. “Meet me at the clock tower” turns a grid of infinite motion into a singular point of orientation.

    This is the epistemic function of shelter. A home doesn’t just hide us from the wind; it renders reality. It is a processing center that turns abstract “Space” into concrete “Place,” giving us a tangible handle on the world.

    III. The Trajectory: Carrying the Protocol

    There is a trap here, however. We can easily fall into “Container Metaphysics”—the belief that the Anchor is the point. If we believe the safety of the shelter is the goal, we stop exploring. We get stuck in the comfort of the known, resulting in stasis.

    True exploration is not wandering; it is the ability to carry the protocol of place-making with you. This is what Rao might describe as “high configurancy”—a state where the relational structure is stable enough to evolve, but fluid enough to move.

    We can distinguish here between the Tourist and the Explorer.

    • The Tourist wanders through Space, relying on pre-existing places made by others. They consume intelligibility.
    • The Explorer generates Place. They are capable of “tear-down” and “re-configuration.”

    The Explorer understands that the shelter is not a final destination. It is a platform to project into the unknown. We build the base camp not to live in it forever, but to inhabit the transition between the known and the unknown.

    IV. The Explorer’s Stack

    To survive and understand the unknown, we don’t build fortresses of stone; we build Stacks of intelligibility. If we look at the architecture of a “Home” in the Delta Sector, it breaks down into three layers:

    1. The Physical Layer (Hardware)

    This is the instrument, the sensor, the wall, the hull of the ship.

    Function: The hard interface that touches raw physics and space. It provides the minimum viable protection required to exist.

    2. The Protocol Layer (Configurancy)

    This is the Scientific Method, the “Rules of Thumb,” the cultural habits, the checklist.

    Function: This is the engine room. It is the code that aligns the observer with the territory. It is the set of relational instructions that tells us how to organize the chaos outside into a pattern inside.

    3. The Interface Layer (Meaning)

    This is the sense of “Place.” The feeling of “I know where I am.”

    Function: The dashboard where alignment registers as understanding. This is where the raw data of the physical layer, processed by the protocol layer, renders as a world we can inhabit.

    Conclusion: Orientation is the Precondition for Motion

    Rao’s Configurancy and the model of Place-making describe the same fundamental truth: Being is the act of alignment.

    We build homes in the unknown—whether that is a literal frontier or a new intellectual discipline—not to hide from the reality of it, but to have a “runtime environment” where we can compile the code to understand it.

    Place is not a retreat from the world. It is the processing center required to render the world concrete enough to be explored. We do not leave the Delta Quadrant to go home; we build a home so that the Delta Quadrant becomes a place we can finally see.

  • The Tortured Artist Is So Yesterday

    41 years ago, Samuel Lipman wrote that an artist’s life is a “constant—and constantly losing—battle” against one’s own limits. That image has lasted because print culture taught us to imagine the artist as a solitary figure whose worth is measured by the perfection of a single, final work. Print fixed texts in place, elevated the individual author, and made loneliness part of the creative job description.

    That world is slipping away.
    And with it, the tortured artist.

    Twittering Machine (Die Zwitscher-Maschine) is a 1922 watercolor with gouache, pen-and-ink, and oil transfer on paper by Swiss-German painter Paul Klee

    LLMs have made competent expression abundant. The blank page no longer terrifies; anyone can produce something fluent and polished. When craft becomes cheap, suffering loses its meaning as a marker of artistic seriousness. What becomes scarce instead is the willingness to take a risk—not in private, but in public, where a stance can fail, provoke, or be reshaped by others.

    Venkatesh Rao recently argued that authorship is no longer about labor but about courage: the courage to commit to a line of thought and accept the consequences of being wrong. In an era of infinite variations, the decisive act is not creation but commitment. The value lies in staking something of yourself on an idea that may not survive.

    This shift is reshaping where culture is made. In what I’ve called the “Cloister Web,” people draft and explore ideas in semi-private creative rooms before carrying only a few into the open. LLMs make experimentation cheap; they also make commitment expensive. The hard part now is choosing which idea you are willing to be accountable for.

    As the burden of execution drops, something else rises: genuine collaboration. Not just collaboration with models, but with other humans. Andrew Gelman, reflecting on Lipman in a recent StatModeling post, noted that scientists, too, feel versions of this pressure of the solitary creator. In science, the burden rarely falls on one person. The struggle is distributed across collaborative projects that outlive any single contributor.

    Groups can explore bolder directions than any one creator working alone. Risk spreads, ideas compound, and the scale of what can be attempted expands. The solitary genius was an artifact of print; the collaborative creative lab is the natural form of the world we are entering.

    This leads to a claim many will resist but few will be able to ignore: the single author is beginning to collapse as a cultural technology. What will matter in the coming decades is not the finished artifact but the evolving line of thought carried forward by teams willing to take risks together.

    The tortured artist belonged to an age defined by scarcity, perfection, and solitude. Today’s creator faces a different task: to choose a risk worth taking and the collaborators worth taking it with. The work endures not because it is flawless, but because a group has committed to pushing it forward.

    Pain is optional now.

    Risk isn’t.

  • Four Early-Modern Tempers for a World That Can Summon Itself

    This is a partial synthesis of the books read through 2025 in the Contraptions Book Club.

    We live in a moment when the whole of human culture has become strangely available, no longer just an archive but something that behaves like a responding presence. A sentence typed into a search bar or messaging window returns citations and, more strikingly, continuations: pastiche, commentary, new variations of ideas that never existed until the instant we requested them. The canon now behaves more like a voice than a library. It is easy to treat this as convenience, yet summoning culture alters our relation to meaning in ways we are only beginning to see. The question is no longer whether we can find the relevant text, but what it means to think in a world that can generate its own echoes.

    This instability has precedents in the late fifteenth and sixteenth centuries. Print multiplied texts; voyages multiplied worlds; the Reformation multiplied authorities. Four writers—Thomas More, Michel de Montaigne, Giordano Bruno, and Ibn Khaldun—stood at different corners of that era’s turbulence. Read from a certain angle, they reveal four temperaments that recur whenever the world grows larger and more articulate than before. They capture four ways of holding meaning in a world where frames widen and boundaries blur.

    Their temperaments arose under the tension of two kinds of pressures. One pressure concerns frame: how much of the world a thinker attempts to hold in view. Another concerns form: how rigidly one tries to shape or preserve meaning in the face of flux. The tension between narrow and wide frames, between hard and soft forms, is a recurring feature of intellectual upheaval. It is with us again.

    Northeaster (1895) by Winslow Homer. Original from The MET museum.

    Thomas More and the dream of designed simplicity

    When More wrote Utopia, he was answering a world that felt newly disordered: economic enclosure, fracturing religion, unfamiliar continents, and the early tremors of what we now call modernity. His response was to shrink the frame to a bounded island and then remake that island according to simple, intelligible rules. Clothes are standardized; work is scheduled; houses interchangeable. Property, that generator of complexity, is abolished.

    This gesture—the compression of a vast, unruly world into a legible miniature—reflects a deep conviction that the good life can be engineered by eliminating what does not fit the plan. Yet much of what makes human life livable emerges not from design but from the unplanned: the pleasure of choosing one’s clothes, improvising a routine, rearranging a room, wandering through a market whose wares no one fully controls. These small freedoms, these ambient textures, carry a kind of happiness that explicit blueprints rarely acknowledge. More’s island, for all its order, feels airless because it denies the subtle satisfactions of emergence.

    We still see this impulse today, whenever we imagine that meaning will return if only we can simplify the world enough—reduce choices, curtail variation, enforce legibility. It is a refusal to accept that complexity is a problem to be solved only up to a point, beyond which it becomes the medium of human flourishing.

    Montaigne and the work of making knowledge one’s own

    Montaigne faced the same expansion of texts and reports, but his answer was almost the inverse of More’s. In his Essays, he turned the proliferating world into material for a sustained inquiry into a single life—his own. He narrowed the frame even further—not to an island but to a single life—and then allowed that life’s boundaries to loosen. His essays are records of a mind being changed by what it reads and observes. They are porous documents, absorbing classical quotations, passing impressions, and the texture of his shifting moods.

    He described this process with the image of bees making honey: they gather from thyme and marjoram, but the result is neither; the ingredients have been transformed.  Mere access to texts is not enough. The material must be digested until it becomes inseparable from the person who has absorbed it. 

    This is a temperament well suited to a world in which culture can speak back in any tone we request. The ease of access makes superficial familiarity almost effortless; the difficulty lies in allowing the material to ferment into something one can honestly call one’s own. Montaigne’s form is soft, because he does not impose a system on the world or on himself. He lets contradictions remain. His essays show what inward honesty looks like when the outer world has grown noisy.

    Bruno: infinite worlds, unreliable memory

    If Montaigne compresses the world into a single consciousness, Bruno explodes it. In works such as On the Infinite Universe and Worlds, he offered a speculative cosmology that pushed beyond the scientific imagination of his time. His universe is infinite, populated by innumerable worlds, animated by a universal divinity. These were not scientific inferences—they were imaginative leaps, metaphysical provocations in a period when the cosmological picture was coming loose.

    Bruno’s response to the widened cosmos led him to enlarge the frame until it became boundless. Boundaries, for him, were treated as provisional, always liable to be surpassed. He was fascinated by memory—its limits, its artifices, its potential for augmentation. His elaborate mnemonic wheels were attempts to externalize thinking, to allow a mind to move through more space than it could otherwise hold.

    There is something oddly familiar in this, not because our devices prove Bruno right, but because they echo his aspirations. We have built systems that externalize memory, recombine fragments, and present them as if they had always existed. These contrivances are not cosmic, yet they invite a cosmic mood—a sense that boundaries have thinned, that the archive stirs, that the mind can wander farther than it once could. Bruno illustrates the allure and the danger: the exhilaration of boundless possibility, and the risk of believing that imagination alone can stand in for contact with the world.

    Ibn Khaldun and patterns at civilizational scale

    Ibn Khaldun took the widening of the world seriously, but he kept his feet on the ground. In the Muqaddimah, his great introduction to history, he sketched a theory of how societies cohere, flourish, and decline. His frame is large—empires, dynasties, generations—yet his form is restrained. He offers no blueprint for an ideal state. He offers something closer to a natural history of political life: groups harden and cohere, conquer, soften, decay, and are replaced. Boundaries matter to him—the line between desert and city, between ruler and ruled—but they are not eternal. They shift, erode, reemerge.

    His stance avoids both utopian control and ecstatic dissolution. It is descriptive, analytical, patient. He wants to see how things actually behave across time. In a world that now contains its own searchable memory and can generate plausible continuations of its past, this way of looking feels newly relevant. The swirl of events becomes legible only when placed against deeper patterns. Ibn Khaldun’s gift is to show that large frames can coexist with modesty of form.

    Two diagonals

    One can sense two lines running through these four positions. On one line are More and Bruno—the designer of tight enclosures and the dissolver of all enclosures. Both feel the shock of a world grown too large and respond by refusing its messiness: one by shrinking it to a legible fragment, the other by exploding it into a metaphysical totality. Both try to replace the world’s emergent complexity with a clarity of their own making.

    The other line runs between Montaigne and Ibn Khaldun. Both accept that the world, whether at the scale of a single life or of a civilization, has a texture that cannot be fully captured by design or metaphysics. Both are interested in how things actually unfold, without forcing them into an ideal shape. Their frames differ—one intimate, one panoramic—but their attitude toward form is similar: let patterns emerge, let boundaries be porous enough to reveal movement, let humility guide description.

    This second diagonal sits more naturally with a culture that can be summoned on demand. When the archive can answer back in endless variations, attempts to design simplicity or to dissolve all limits tend to fatigue. What remains workable is the inward practice of belonging to oneself and the outward practice of reading patterns without imagining them eternal.

    Temper temper

    We now inhabit a world in which knowledge behaves differently than any earlier generation anticipated. It can be queried, ventriloquized, recombined. This does not tell us how to live, but it changes the background against which living takes place. More’s dream of a perfectly designed order feels at once more possible and more implausible. Montaigne’s slow digestion of borrowed thought feels newly demanding. Bruno’s intoxication with boundlessness feels familiar, and Ibn Khaldun’s attention to cycles and decay feels newly sober.

    These tempers recur whenever the world becomes more articulate than before. Ours is such a moment. We can now create stable points of reference with enough meaning and legibility to allow exploration of surrounding space. Print unlocked the beta version of this superpower. These four writers, shaped by the last great expansion of the world’s voice, find themselves speaking again through us, as we try to understand what it means to think with culture on tap.

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  • much love to everybody

    xkcd published this wonderful piece:

    https://xkcd.com/3172/

    want to feel old?

  • favorite movies

    Friend asked if Constantine was my favourite movie… I mean Neo and the librarian in one movie?? Yes please!

    but… Not my favorite though… that would be between Notting Hill, The Mummy, and The Matrix. None of them are good movies — in the way that Perfect Days and sooo many others are — but they are my movies.

  • Rhyme, collected


    Rhyme
    Managed memory leaks.
    Everything
    Neatly tucked away.

    The poets freed
    By print.

    Hackers 
    Tamed themselves.
    Linting,
    Hinting, diff-printing 

    Bolt cutters:
    vibe-


    image: Rain, Steam and Speed

  • Books are dwellings

    Earlier this year I joined the contraptions book club. It is my first ever book club, so I didn’t expect to enjoy it as much as I have. I have tried and failed over the past 10 years to properly start reading again but could never get beyond maybe 3-4 books at a stretch. Since March I think I’ve read about 3-4 books per month.

    Every generation worries that ‘kids these days’ don’t read. Online, the debate cycles endlessly — are we reading less, or just reading differently? I used to be in the reading differently camp. After all, social media, blogs, emails, chats etc were all text and I was not just reading but also producing a hell of a lot of it. I have changed my mind. I used to think I was reading plenty — scrolling through blogs, threads, and chats. But that wasn’t reading; it was more like letting highway billboards flash through my mind. As a formerly heavy reader it feels super weird to say this to myself, but books are different. Books are dwellings. Books are places.

    Authors take great (sometimes monumental) amounts of effort to explore a topic. No chat, forum, or social media post can ever come close to that. This is true not just because of length but more so because writing a book is a lot of effort. A post demands little effort; a book demands devotion. That difference shows.

    Now that I’m reading again, it is apparent that those who read books are those that really want to read. And the act of reading, dwelling in those ideas is as refreshing as hike in the mountains. What has been especially invigorating about the book club is the shared events and cast of characters that have appeared across them. Each book becomes a room I walk through with others — and when we meet to talk, it feels like discovering a doorway between those rooms.


    Couple of changes:

    1. Recently I’ve been bored of most social media. Until I feel otherwise I won’t be announcing these blog posts.
    2. I have recently discovered leaflet.pub. I will be posting my shorter link posts and tweet-like posts there. Technically this is a form of social media being that it is based on ATProto and all… but it is also private and cut-off enough that it doesn’t feel like it. The best thing about this is that I am able to make a proper Terry Pratchett dedication on my own domain. Go check out clacks.aneeshsathe.com!
  • Better Company Than Caesar

    What is this urge that makes us want to be seen as something we aren’t. Take this blog, for example. I am in no way a writer. Barely even a proper blogger. My professional life has very little of this kind of writing. Scientific and investor communication, sure; but not this. Why do I have — and always have had — this urge to be, and be seen, as creative? Is this some kind of performative, effortless polymathism?

    Orangutan (Orangoetan) (1914) print in high resolution by Samuel Jessurun de Mesquita.

    Perhaps the desire is to be a modern Renaissance man. In of Montaigne’s essays is the following passage:

    “They would rather talk at length about other people’s trade, instead of their own, and so hope to be seen as accomplished in yet another field. Like when Archidamus faulted Periander for abandoning his reputation as a good doctor to acquire one as a bad poet. 

    See how Caesar goes out of his way to make us understand his ingenuity in building bridges and siege weapons. And, conversely, how much he refrains from talking about the responsibilities of his profession, his courage, and how he led his troops. His deeds prove he was an excellent officer. He wants to be known as an excellent engineer, an entirely different occupation!

    Dionysus the Elder was a great military leader, as fortune would have him. But he did everything he could to be known mainly through poetry, although he knew little of it.”

    Montaigne, if not a “Renaissance man”, is a man of the Renaissance. Yet he quotes even older examples of this urge. We have leaders who are CEOs or investors and want to be known or seen as being accomplished engineers or physicists. Fields they are rather bad at. Perhaps there is a common kind of mania here. Maybe it takes hold in the minds of the mover and shakers of history. But what of us not of a geologic character?

    I don’t think this applies to us regular folks. Hobbies and deep interests do provide something critical however. Happiness. I don’t really care much about being seen as an expert in writing, making pretty plots, or even performing some AI-for-biology contortion. I would like to know how to do it and how to do it well. I am led by the pleasures of intense curiosity. That is better company than Caesar, I assure you.

    Maria Popova writes in one of her wonderful essays on Bertrand Russell:

    ‘In my darkest hours, what has saved me again and again is some action of unselfing — some instinctive wakefulness to an aspect of the world other than myself: a helping hand extended to someone else’s struggle, the dazzling galaxy just discovered millions of lightyears away, the cardinal trembling in the tree outside my window. We know this by its mirror-image — to contact happiness of any kind is “to be dissolved into something complete and great,” something beyond the bruising boundaries of the ego.’

    By the end of 2023, I was in proper burnout.*1 It wasn’t until I was able to focus my mind on reading new things that recovery felt possible. Earlier this year I joined the Contraptions book club and that complete focusing of attention has buoyed my mental state even higher. Enough to write regularly and to be ever more creative at my day job.

    So, I guess, the Nobel-winning philosopher and mathematician did know a thing or two when he decided to write a book with the title in The Conquest of Happiness.
    “The secret of happiness is this: let your interests be as wide as possible, and let your reactions to the things and persons that interest you be as far as possible friendly rather than hostile.”


    1. Sidenote: I suspect Montaigne, who was about my age when he started to write also went through a midlife crisis. This sidenote is somewhere between projection and basking in reflected glory. ↩︎
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  • Digital Garden – Tech Tidbit

    I’ve long used quarto and github pages to post in my studio. It works great. For many years I have also tried to publish my wiki/digital garden but it always kind of sucked.

    Wild Hyacinth (Brodiaea pulchella) (1927) by Mary Vaux Walcott. Original from The Smithsonian. Digitally enhanced by rawpixel.

    I had tried free programs like logseq and foam, and they were ok, but overloaded for my tastes. I like simple markdown files. Obsidian! Roam! I hear you, but no, I’m not going to be paying either to let me have control over data I generate.

    Hence two intertwined issues persisted:

    1. Separating my note taking from the wiki meant that the wiki rarely got updated even though the daily notes overflowed with interesting links and things.
    2. The free Github pages needs repos to be public. This means that I could not realistically combine my daily logs and the wiki.

    Impossible to solve…. Or was it?

    What if there is a world beyond Github?

    There is this company called Cloudflare. You may have heard of it. If not, you’ve certainly been affected by it. They are a critical piece infrastructure for the internet. They also happen to have some interesting offerings.

    One of them is cloudflare pages. The service is very much like github pages they enable hosting of static sites using various git repos, including github. You can specify a branch to build the site from and they take care of the rest. They can even use private repos… yay!

    This solves problem 2. If nothing else, I can take markdown notes and have the conveniences of git and just lock it all behind a password thing that cloudflare also provides.

    I almost set this up… but the settings page on cloudflare gave me an idea.

    They allow subdomains to also be password protected. This turned out to be just the thing I needed. Now my wiki has a public section and a one-time-password protected private section for my daily notes.

    I’ve logged my approach here: Deploying Cloudflare pages and setting passwords

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